Leave it all behind

You always hear clichés that you should trust your gut feeling, following your heart and blah blah . I’m turning 21 the next week and I realized that whatever I did during these years was normal stuff. Stuff that doesn’t make you feel alive. Always following a schedule. Study, eat, sleep, friends. The brain, a strong control freak wanting to have everything planned out. Everything seemed repetitive and monotonous until that day.
I get a call one morning from a friend. He  says: “I’m climbing the Himalayas next month!  Are you in or out?” Subconsciously I blurted out a Yes. Next thing I know is my brain freaking out. There can be no place for such randomness. How was I to manage my college, tests,  gym sessions and other stuff. It is not easy to just disappear off the grid for a fortnight just because your heart wants you to travel. You can’t just leave everything because that inner voice tells you to travel, right? There will come a time when everything will fall into place and you can travel without worrying about you boss or spouse or teacher or family or friends, right?
NO. Unfortunately you know it too. The time will never be perfect. You’ll either be too old or too young or too tired or too broke. I had a chance to try out a thing I always wanted. I trusted that the voice in me was strong enough to guide me through all the randomness. So today, I managed to schedule everything properly and I’m on my way to the Himalayas. Yes, a fifteen day break right in the middle of the working year. You never know what opportunities may open up once you trust your gut.
I’m currently on my way. Nothing is going as planned so far. There is so much randomness. I haven’t figured out where I’ll be staying tomorrow. I have the slightest idea where I’ll be eating my dinner tonight. I’m low on battery, without proper Internet access and can’t even pinpoint myself on a map. It’s 2 degrees and my fingers are freezing as I type every word. But there’s this adrenaline rush. For the first time in months I have nothing planned. This frenzy is amazing. I’m in love. In love with this chaos. After all life is a big bucket list and getting things done is the way, I believe, to truly make the most out of it.